Packing

Mouse is back from HQ.On entering the temporary abode mouse smells crisis. The time has come, to shift to change the abode. But mouse is too lazy to put things together. So scheming is going on.. nothing seems to work out, so mouse decides. Let there be chaos. Leave the abode in the present mess, call mama mouse for disaster management. But, alas, mouse turns out to be unlucky as mama mouse is currently doing disaster management somewhere else. Panic strikes. Darting eyes all around mouse started running around pulling out stuff, only for late realization that its not a mouse's job. MOUSE CAN ONLY MOVE CHEESE NOT CLOTHES AND BOOKS :(

Final 'Feed'back

some days in your life you come up with realizations that actually shock your life,it can be true it can be false. but it is the ultimate truth for atleast some time. this is not a soothing realization as most of the 'aha' experiences are not very encouraging. today, for example, today mouse was sitting there in the corner munching on some biscuits trying to figure out how much the biscuits costs from the taste and texture. mouse looked around actually bored at the bunch of hot blooded youngsters trying to wake up the lazy grey heads from their slumber. The young bunch seem to be all set to change the system. Their enthusiasm knows no bounds. They were even lashing at each other ready to cut throat anyone who contradicts. The wise grey head, sat there, listening, nodding giving all reassurances and empathy, encouraging the hot bloods. This went on like a cycle. Then suddenly the wise grey head wanted mouse's suggestion, well,mouse don't have any. The mighty grey head was surprised (or feigned surprise). Then she said in her wise calm nice soothing tone. mouse don't remember what she said exactly but the gist of it was, nothing is gonna change here. Whatever the system is it is for the good of young blood like you who will realize that later in life. So, mouse was happy not to have wasted energy of the 'tiger' biscuits on some unwanted suggestions

The Loop

some days are the same as other days, some are different, some days are half half. then some are on extremes, cant say which one is what and which one is good, its all a confusion. days pass by and go on, there is no awareness about it, awareness of your own existence is lacking. then suddenly, u happen to read upon something which makes u come back, bang on reality. the the whole process of reality testing happens, u r a happier human being again some other things crops up, u r not aware of what is happening, it goes on and on... the cycle continues. need a diamond cutter to break the loop!

Anxiety

sometimes no anxiety plays a major role. u have exams- final year exams next week. but only thing u can do is sit and stare at books. after a while tired of staring the eyes becomes heavy the next step is sleep. sleep goes on and on.. then when u wake up feels hungry- of course energy was burned. step 3 eating. after eating lethargy so step 4 - sleep again just to refresh oneself. get up from sleep, overwhelmed by the vastness of syllabus high anxiety= poor performance due to poor attention and concentration...the optimal level of anxiety is what one is yearning for instead of extremely low/ high anxiety.

The Lost Key

Key, even though small and mostly in consequnetial, is one of the most importan part of one's life. it plays an important role in an uncomplaining, unassertive manner. The key helps us unlock and lock the locks, it hels us to show off our trendy key chains, it helps in giving a punch to the 'body touchers' in the public (it is effective if u keep the key in between ur fingers and punch them), it can be used to scratch ur back, scratch out accumalated dirt on ur desk, distract kids, as toothers for kids and many more... uses the small piece of metal have is individaully dependent and hence innumerable. Thus losing a key puts u in the most uncomfortable situations. Especially u know where u have left your beloved key and then getting it means spending Rs.200.... then what can you do?
You come back to your room after staying out at a friend's place with some old clothes on, steaming in the scroching sun u see ur room waiting for u (the lock and key protecting it from others and keeping it safe and special for u), u put ur hand inside ur pocket to feel the coolness of steel with a smile on ur face.. BANG - NO KEYS. The greatest dissappointment anyone can begin a day with....

cyclothymia

some days come with all surprises. there is no end for it. one after the other which makes you feel like a spl person, dfrnt from evryone in a out of the world way. then suddenly the next second evrythg is shattered. you are an ordinary person,actually way below ordinary that nobody even cares whtr u exist or not. the earlier out of the world experience seems like a conspiracy, a shattering of self image a suspicion on the mankind and the surrounding, doubt about future feeling of inadequacy about present. total feeling of failure which is proved by wishful thinking and wrong decisions. life moves from bad to worse and and more worse states... but then, does the same individual take pride thinking that "i told u my life is a wreck. so i am right" and hence boosting ones own self in a discreet way??? wonders of the mind, a juvenile can never understnd

power of positive thinking

there has been a lot of talk about optimism and pessimism and the importance of optimism in life. even studies on cancer has shown optimism helps in treatment process. the often quoted 'half full- half empty' glass has often been really puzzling. only if one realises that the glass is half empty, it wil be filled. or it wil remain the same because it is half FULL! recently read something- half empty, half full, or a glass that need to be washed. make sense :)

exam fever

exams are something everyone had to go through in their life atleast once. Its mandatory that atleast one exam everyone would have written. It is common sense that u become experienced in something which you do regulary and it becomes ur habit. But most people find exams to be difficult even when in their life they have given 100 or more exams in total. i was just wondering why is that so? why do people continue to be scared of exams even when they reach M.phil or Ph.d or Post-doc?? it is not a primitiive fear response. it is definitely conditioned but the strength of the learning is so high that people cant get out of fear of examination. almost 99% of students wil study atleast the day b4 exams. otherwise they cant go on. anyway, it also has a survival value i guess, in the modern world...